We always loved the sad, sad songs

this is the place where I write my feelings

Jan 3

Since the day we first met I knew you were leaving me. I knew you were turning your back to me and keep going with your beautiful life. I always knew it. I always knew but I chose be blind. I tought I didn’t need my eyes with you I thought I just need to feel.

I jumped off that cliff and you were holding my hand. I was feeling so safe with your arms around me, with you kissing my cheeks and my fingers and keeping me always close. I forgot what I knew. I forgot you were going to leave me. I thought I could be happy this time. But you left and let me falling in this hole alone.

You know what is the worse part? I dug this hole where I’m now. I wanted to jump off the cliff because I thought you was worth it.

I still keep trying to figure out from where you came from. I was feeling so alone and nothing could be worse then was in that night. You saw me and I still can’t believe that you really saw me like no one ever did before. During the next six months you were the better thing in my life, you made me feel ME again after a long time. You made me see the colors again, no just grey like I used to see, you made me wake up and see all these beautiful colors in your life. You made me want to be part of the rainbow and I was just a little girl picking up my broken pieces and trying not to fall in love for you. Maybe I forgot who I was trying to be your.

And now I’m just trying figure out why. Why did you came to me, why did you came into my life just to fade away like the others did. You are not like the others. You are so unique in my memories like a rare book that I didn’t have time to finish.